Playing Catch-up

So...it's been a while since I've logged into this thing. Not sure if anyone still even reads this. But what the hey. So for anyone who doesn't know...I didn't get the job on the air force base. Turns out they decided to give the other girl a second chance and she has been doing very well. Hurray for her.

I am also no longer working for university. I have actually went back to working for Lifetouch. Still stressful. working with a lot of new people. I got a raise for coming back, but I still don't think it's enough. It was a hard decision to make, but it basically boiled down to the fact that I had higher earning potential at Lifetouch and...that kind of office work is not for me. I'm the creative type. Security and paid sick leave is lovely, but for me, it's not worth being stuck behind a desk all day..watching the clock, patiently waiting for 5 o'clock to roll around. It was very nice and minimal stress, but I just didn't really like it.

Not like I love Lifetouch. I'm ready to give it up. Or at least break away from road photography. Maybe if I was in the studio. I don't know. I know that I'm tired of not being happy with my job. Is it weird to love the work, but not the job? I drove 3 hours yesterday to a school that had all of 70 students. Sweet kids...but my boss just paid me for 6 hours of driving and probably made...maybe $500 out of it. Ah well.

I feel like this town is stifling me. I spent 5 years of constantly moving around and seeing and doing things. I spent the last two years doing jack squat. I'm so bored out of mind I'm tempted to just pick up and move. Just quit my job, pack up everything and be outta here in like 2 days. I'm planning a move very soon. Probably sooner than my husband would like...but I"m so tired of being here. I don't know exactly what I want to do with my life, but how can I pick something if I don't know what's out there ya know?

If you can't tell, I'm feeling kind of down this morning. Probably not the best time to update my blog after such a long absence. But that's life.

One good thing, is that I actually got my husband to agree to let me take one course at the Academy of Art University in San Franscico. After months of pleading. The month before class started was buried in issues and the stress of trying to decide where I wanted to work. Also they were trying to get me into the Master's program for which I was not prepared. I ultimately decided that I couldn't commit what I wanted to the class and therefore not worth all the money I would have had to spend on it. Besides...I want proof that the Bachelor's degree is going to do something for me some day before I invest in a Masters. Especially one that expensive.

However I still have the textbook...so I guess I'll just go through and see what I can do by myself. One of these days I will make something of myself. It's just...not a whole lot has been working out for me lately. Did I mention someone managed to get my savings account number and transfer money out of it using paypal, through which my savings account is not even linked. Not just once. It happened a month or two ago so I closed my account and opened a new one. Then a couple of weeks ago it happened again to the new account. So I'm thinking I'm either going to have to shut down my connection with paypal or take my savings account to another bank. I've gotten almost all of my money back...but it's so frustrating.

Sorry for all the belly-aching, but this is basically my personal journal, so what you get is what you get. Maybe next time I'll be feeling better. I hope so. I'm aiming to move in May. September at the very latest, whether my husband's ready to go or not.